Monday, February 17, 2014

The miracle of his precious presence.

She almost fell while running that fast... She wasn't running fast in fact, but she was running as fast as she could due to her no-sport skills. She was way too excited to focus on the way and that small sidewalk was almost unpredictable, yet she got it. Yes, she arrived on time. 
- Here! She said excited and super tired while stretching out a box to him. And he just looked at her while smiling.
There it was... all that she needed to be happy, more than the "thanks" he would give her, that smile of his was way much more than thanks, more than anything... Because that smile of his to her was all that she wanted to feel she was giving back, at least, a little bit of what she always gets from him. 
- Thanks. He said still smiling while looking at his gift.
- You're welcome. She said while smiling at him yet, looking straight at him, getting herself lost in the beauty of his deep eyes, his calm expression, and that lovely smile of his.
They started walking in silence and she was thinking about what else could she ask for? All the time they've spent together... having him around was even better than a place full of candies and rainbows. She couldn't tell how good was her to him, no matter how many times he'd told her she makes him good; yet she could tell, clearly, how good he was for her; how when she was drowning he was air, when she was falling down he was a hand, when she was in tears he was a sweet and sincere word, when she was rain he was a rainbow when she had no hope he was a miracle, she knew how in a world filled with hatred and rudeness he was love and kindness, yet that wasn't enough to explain how incredible his presence was in her life.
She closed her eyes for a minute giving thanks to God for having the joy of meeting him, for having that awesome creature in her life, for having been that blessed, no, no, more than blessed! She just gave thanks for the miracle of his precious presence... for had been saved for the cutest being on Earth and God giving her such honor.
Even when things weren't perfect and his life was a bit messy at the very moment, she couldn't complain... not even once! Because he was a perfect reason for her to smile always. That's how amazing he was for her, how beautiful he appears in her eyes... and how deep her love towards him was.
Now, she just wanted to have a little more of his light while he smiles, more specifically while he smiles cause of her... saying inside of herself "At least this, at least this I can do for you, sweet pearl of mine".


Saturday, February 15, 2014

In your lonely mind.

- Are you alright? She asked her.
- I'm doing well... She answered while coughing.
And she was just there, watching throught the window, with a bunch of questions without answers. Because she knew in advance it wasn't fine, yet she wanted to keep on believing so.
- Ain't you in pain today?
- No.
- It's good to know that you're finally feeling better.
- I wasn't that bad anyways.
- A week at home & a whole day at bed only?
- Those are normal things in me. She said & moved fast to the other room.
It was not that she didn't know, I repeat, she knew it; but, for a little while you can think as you please & not necessarily the way it actually is.
She was just done with her thoughts & she couldn't deny it; her feelings wanted to take control of her & do anything she pleases, make it easy on herself...
Yet, she knew what the true was... people couldn't say she didn't know just because she decided to avoid the topic; so she closed her eyes, and in a matter of seconds thousands of images appeared up and she could see everything she wanted becoming part of reality...
She cried that day, she laugh as well & cried, laughed & cried, laughed & cried. She cried because she knew it was a lie that would end up killing her any soon... & she laughed cause no one, ever, could take away from her that imagination, no one could, ever, take away from her the pleasure of doing anything she pleases, at least in her lonely mind.
- Didn't you say it was fine? Why are you crying now then?
- I'm in pain.
- Why do you laugh, anyways?
- Because as much as it hurts, as much as it makes me happy. The happiest.
- You must be sick.
- Maybe... but believe it or not, I'm enjoying it... Because even when later it may turn into a source of pain only; at this very moment is the main source of happiness I've ever gotten.

"Indeed Allah is the knower of all that is in the hearts" 
[3:154] ♥



Date of written: Tuesday, February 04th 2014