The Why's

If I cry, why do you cry?

If I laugh, why do you laugh?

At the end, what do people want?

If they don't even know why should I think about that?

More Than Special.

You know… I’m the kind of person that don’t stop loving someone easily, that kind of person you come to think “uff, when will she leave me alone?” yeah, I gotta admit I’m pretty annoying, like a child and ever worse… still there are so many people that have let me and I’ve let go out of my life so many times… It has been so painful, still nothing as painful as just the idea about losing you :) NO WAY MAN, that’s not even an option in my head, anything would be better than losing you… I really mean it when I say I know you’re not perfect, I can’t say I know absolutely everything about you… but I can say I love everything I know about you (: for me… you’re not just a friend, for me you’re not a part of my life, you’re my life itself… I mean, if you’re not in, then my life is… it’s not my life for real, because not an important only, but one of the most important pieces is missing: You <3 I think you’re one of the best person I’ve ever met, yeah you :D with all your things, I swear to God, with everything, with your good virtues but also with your flaws, also I don’t want someone perfect since I know no one can be that but God, so… all I want is you to be there, no matter what… maybe I’m selfish, maybe I’m childish, maybe I’m too naïve, maybe just maybe I’m asking and begging for something eternal even when I know nothing can last that long… still, while you’re with me, I want you to know, how amazing you are, how you come to be such an exceptional human being, that kind of person that you look for over and over again everywhere but you barely find… like a real treasure, that kind of treasure that make you think “what a miracle” yeah… that kind <3 you’re not an usual person, you’re not as weird as you think you’re though; yeah, you’re not easy, you’re so hard to handle sometimes… only God knows how many times I have shed tears for you… you have no idea about how many times I’ve been mad at you or sad over something you do or say, but nothing has been sooooooooooo painful as the thought about I might lose you… that kind of thought is… unbearable, that’s why I care so much, because I can’t be without you for real, for me you’re the best friend I’ve ever had & I’m sure about you don’t know how much it means to me… You may think I over react about your value, you may think I’ve put you in a throne and I can’t really see the way you are and how you’re not as amazing as I seem to think… but it will be an understatement saying whatever I say. I can say a lot of bad things in you :D I can name one by one ;) still if I try saying all the good things I find in you, all my knowledge in words will come to an end still my good thoughts won’t; if just for one day, you can see you the way I see you, you’ll start loving you sooooo deeply, that you’ll never ever feel any kind of hate over yourself.

Probably you’re already thinking I write too much… no matter how many I write, I never come to express all what I feel, seriously, no matter how many. I just pray to God, there will come a day when you open your eyes in your day to day and you can see there’s no need to be the best, being yourself is more than enough, being yourself is already being the best even if it’s not like that in your own eyes. I trust you so much, that I can say you’ll always be a little better than what you’re already are because you’re always improving yourself, to you own rhythm for sure, you don’t have to be like the rest, it’s good the way you do, stay true to yourself you’re doing it great, just don’t let people, don’t let your mistakes, don’t let anything make you think you’re anything less that all what I’ve said, because I can assure you’re all what I say and more. Please… smile at the mirror every day at least once… because that mirror is showing you one of the person I love the most… my best friend in the world :) and looking at him is certainly one of the biggest gifts life can give you, apprec iate him & value him as much as you can and remind him day to day how much I love him <3