Sunday, June 30, 2013

Pain.

She was admitted in the hospital one more time, if things continue like this she was going to die even if no one meant to kill her. 

- What happened this time? Asked the doctor who used to attend her while she was on bed.
- Nothing. She said barely breathing.
- You got a heart attack one more time and I am sure it was not cause of excitement and joy. What has happened now?
- Nothing. She insisted with a better breathe now.
- Why are you hiding it again?
- I am not.
- Then everything is fine...
- It is.
- I guess you want to come back home since you're better now.
- I want.
- You'll die at this rhythm
- Probably this is one of the best ways in any case.
- Wh...what?
- Can I go now doctor?
- You can. He said with a deep pity in his eyes.
- Thanks and goodbye. She said with a sad smile. See you soon.
- Goodbye. He said admiring her strength.

She moved hardly and sit up by herself the best she can, the nurses weren't allow to try helping her since she used to refused to get any help; and left, walking in a strange way and holding her breast as if her heart was going to fall at any moment.


- Will she be okay? A nurse asked to the doctor.
- I hope so. He said and stated attending someone else.

And what no one saw was her tears while she was leaving. Actually she didn't want to come back nor she wanted to leave... she just didn't know what to do and how to live anymore.


4 comments:

  1. that's called TOUCHING! loved ittt.
    crying could get her the solution though. a great solution. I'd talked with people who thought that the last thing they would do when they feel they're in pain is crying. i wouldn't agree at all xD because there were those times when i got really desperate like nothing seemed to have a meaning through my eyes and tried to hold things up till it had me to cry it out. it FELT so much better afterwards. that's a long time ago but i still couldn't really forget the way it felt after. sis, you got to have some more in the next days for those of people who're loving what you write.

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    1. Assalam alaikom brother. Well I agree with you, sometimes crying is the best option, but what to do when you're confused? not just sad but also mad and confused, when you're not even sure about what's going on? It's not like crying will fix things then; still I got your point :)
      Thanks a lot for your support and incentive, jazak Allah khair, I just published something new now but I think I won't post much since I start exams next week. Anyways, let's see what life can give. Salam :)

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  2. Wa Alikoum Alsalam, that's right, of course sis =). confusion doesn't get faded away by crying. hey, the BEST of luck with your exams sis. you're going to do so good Inshallah ^_^

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    1. Thanks :) may Allah bless you ^_^ in sha Allah :D

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