Blameless

I'm not happy at all, 

Can't even smile without pain anymore, 
But I'm freaking done of depending so much 
Want to cry alone 
And face the world on my own!
Maybe I'm asking way too much
But all this mess got to a point
Where I can't take it no more.

Maybe I'm being selfish
As usual me is so childish
But even adults cry when it hurts
And I've lost all my blood
& my whole energy, healing where you injure.

I'm not pretending to be a saint
Heck no! I know well I ain't!
But I'm caring too much 
and you ain't at all
I'm not blaming you 
Certainly you don't know
I'm just saying we hit the goal
& we can't hold it in for so long.

I apologize for every mistake I've done
I get down on my knees even when I should not
And I say in tears that I'll go
While you look up but your tears support us
You'll shout at me & here we go
Once more the show is on
I'm leaving, You're letting me go
You're leaving, I'm begging you not to

I'm not pretending to be a saint
Heck no! I know well I ain't!
But I'm caring too much 
and you ain't at all
I'm not blaming you 
Certainly you don't know
I'm just saying we hit the goal
& we can't hold it in for so long.

I ask myself why is all so wrong?
There's not a middle term between us
It's just all light or all murk 
Can't be so-so it always get harsh
I can't see in darkness, can you?
I may hold your hand, nothing else I can do
Will you guide me to light or just knock me down?
I'm already crawling no need to try hard

I'm not pretending to be a saint
Heck no! I know well I ain't!
But I'm caring too much 
and you ain't at all
I'm not blaming you 
Certainly you don't know
I'm just saying we hit the goal
& we can't hold it in for so long.

I'm a beggar lacking of love
You're another one, pretending you're not
At least I make a barter, you don't
I try paying back you care not
Let's just end it here and say “chao”
Forget all the years cause now it's a chaos
Believe me it's not me saying this discourse
It's my broken heart trying to break the curse
Can't stop bleeding I swear to God
Can't stop weeping the pain's so strong....

I'm not pretending to be a saint
Heck no! I know well I ain't!
But I'm caring too much 
and you ain't at all
I'm not blaming you 
Certainly you don't know
I'm just saying we hit the goal
& we can't hold it in for so long.

You must be confuse by now

Please don't get me wrong, no

I need you more than anyone in the world

I am just done with the misery I go through

Whenever you're not around teaching me to be tough

I swear you're the best friend I've ever had

And my love for you is bigger than my self love

Just let me see your smile once more

I might forget all my sadness now

Please forget your madness too

Gotta admit all this speech is pointless

It was just me babbling out of stress

And you're completely blameless.

Madelaine Bustamante