It's okay if it hurts sometimes.

She was crying and crying and crying... I  couldn't help it but feel sad for her, why was that child crying all alone there? I walked towards her and I found out a woman looking at her in the corner while she was talking with other women, I guess it was her mother; instead of walking to the little girl I went to her mother then.

- Good morning madam.

- Good morning young laddy. She said kind of smiling to me.

- Is that your child? I asked while pointing out the baby girl.

- Yes. She replied. I waited for a few seconds but she didn't say nothing else so I continued.

- She is crying, maybe you can't see since here...

- I can. I know she's crying at the moment but she'll gradually stop.

I couldn't believe it! So there was a mom seeing her child crying and not moving for it, it was just incredible for me, I couldn't even understand her type of heart! Maybe I was over reacting though, children cry over anything... maybe it wasn't a big deal.

- She just lost her teddy & she has been crying for days now. She cries for a while, yet you'll see her playing around again. The thing is my dear, that the teddy she lost was very important for her so no one actually knows how she lost it and she doesn't want to tell me. I've thought about getting her a new one, but whenever I get one she rejected it, so lady, what to do? At least I should let her cry as she wants. The mother said and I saw a shadow of sadness over her face, certainly I judged her way too fast and wrongly.

- I see, would you mind if I talk to her? I requested.

- You should ask her instead. It's okay with me in any case. She answered.

I walked towards the child, yet I wasn't sure about how to manage it. I haven't had my own children yet... how could I explain her that God knows better why the teddy is not by her side anymore? I had to try anyways, it was my duty, my duty as future mother.

- Hi. I told her.

- Hello. She replied and smiled.

- How are you beautiful? 

- I am fine, thank you. And you? She said looking at me and cleaning her tears, yet the sadness was still all drawn over her tiny face.

- I am fine, thank God. Are you seriously fine? 

- Yes. She told me and I wasn't sure about asking but I insited.

- But... I saw you crying some minutes ago.

- Yes, but I am fine. 

- Why were you crying then? I was starting to get curious over her answer.

- Because I miss him.

- Who?

- Him.

- Who is he? 

- My teddy. She said and tear fell down, I just hated myself for insisting.

- I am sorry I guess you don't really want to talk about him.

- I can't get him back. She said now crying frantically.

- Why? Have you lost him? Where did it happen? Maybe we can look for him together.

- He left me. She said and fixed me with her gaze.

- How? It was all I could said, how can a teddy leave a person? It wasn't making any sense to me.

- He stopped playing with me, he started playing more with her. He stopped talking to me and started talking to her. He stopped calling me and started calling her. He stopped loving me and now he just love her. She said and couldn't keep on talking because she was in deep pain. I could see it! I could see it! Yet I couldn't understand her... what was she talking about... who left to who? I was confused and feeling like a real fool not understanding a child. I just remained by her side because I couldn't understand and just repeated her words in my head "stopped playing with me", "stopped talking to me", "stopped calling me", "stopped loving me"... And without any intention he appeared up in my mind, it seems that the little girl called him and asked him to come back here and embed me a knife one more time in the same place it used to be, I thought after two years his memory was sleeping peacefully in a far away place inside of me, but he was just there right now, in front of me, he stopped "playing with me" one more time, he stopped talking to me one more time, he stopped calling me one more time and yes, he stopped loving me. Then there I was crying because I lost my best friend one more, but did I actually lose him? Yes, but just because he left me. I was so focused in my thought that I couldn't see how the kid stopped crying and now she was just looking at me really worried.

- Are you okay? She said. I tried to speak but I was just crying frantically as she was a few minutes ago and couldn't say a word out of the pain I was feeling at that very moment without him.

She took my hand in her little hands and prayed: "Dear God, she just lost a teddy like me. Please make her understand that this teddy wasn't for her but for another child and bring her a teddy for her only, a pretty one, the prettiest... even prettier than mine! So one day, we will stop crying for the old one. Amen." And when she finished I was not crying anymore, at the end she told me what I went to tell her, in fact she already knew what I wanted to teach her, who was learning something there was me, me that could give an advice to someone else but coulnd't take it for myself, me that knew God has a purpose for everything but couldn't control my sadness over an old lost, me, the adult here.

- Are you feeling better? She asked and I hugged her.

- Yes baby, I am so sorry, I just wanted to help you but you ended up helping me. I am so sorry over your lost. I told her.

- It's okay, I am fine. I lost my teddy and I am not thinking anymore he will come back, but I miss him... yet I know God will send me another teddy, one that truly loves me and befriend me forever. I just cry sometimes because I miss my teddy & it's okay if you cry, God understand we are sad, but He is the one that will make us happy as well, just wait and see; meanwhile you have the right to cry as much as you need, one day you'll stop crying indeed. She told me and gave me one more lesson of life, I Can Cry, I'm allowed to do it since I am hurt. Late or soon God will heal me, yet my tears don't mean I am not accepting His Will, it just means I am an human being cause certainly I am who I am and not who I thought I was supposed to be...

"Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest" 

[ Qur'an 13:28] ♥