Just a moment

We were sit down in the backyard and you seemed to be so lost in your thoughts... it was not something very common but would happen from time to time and I'd love it. It was the only time I feel free to look at you without any interruption and only God knows how much I'd love to look at you. Suddenly you looked at me.

- How are we going to call her? You asked.

- Didn't you say you like Flavia? We agreed on that name if it was a girl and Nicholas if it was a boy. I said smiling and you smiled back to me.

- I was just checking if you changed your mind after all this time. "After all this time" kept sounding in my head and the years we spent apart plus all the years we spent trying to have a baby came to my mind. Yes, it's been "a while" but if that was the name he wanted it wasn't about me changing my mind, it was about changing his. 

- Well, we're going to have four kids. I answered laughing and you looked at me surprised and laughed as well.

- I'm a bit worried here now. You said kidding and I held your hands looking at you right in the deep of your eyes.

- There is nothing to be worried about. I answered you with confidence. We're doing this together, aren't we? I am sorry it was so hard for you in the very beginning. But I am here right next to you, giving you all my support for this family to work out. I said nearly crying because I couldn't help to feel so much of a failure each time I'll remember how much you needed me back then but I couldn't answered properly to the situation which lead us to a break-up. It was good to know we found a way out and fixed our differences somehow and we both had a stable work at the end of the day.

- Shouldn't I be the one saying so? You asked with that sweet tone of yours.

- You've done it too many times. I said laughing, letting your hands go and cleaning up the few tears that rolled over my face. I need to do some compromises here as well. I said and you looked at me with that surprised face of yours.

- Are you maybe copying me, copycat? You said while giving me an inquisitive look but still smiling.

- A tool like me? How could I dare to have such behaviors!? That'd be unforgivable. I answered while putting my hand over my breast with fake indignation and you started laughing out loud and I simply felt glorious! There was not a single time when I was able to make you laugh without feeling like a winner.

- This is the time when you say again "I'll try not to be controlled by you, my own tool." I said sticking my tongue out. When you were calm it was certainly easy to joke around with you.

- Come on, you're not a tool anymore. You said getting closer to me. Not even a "simple" girlfriend! You said with a funny tone. You're my wife now. You said now seriously, holding my hand and making my wedding-ring spin around my finger, like pointing out that was a clear reminder. I couldn't hold it in and pecked you in your lips, then hid my face rapidly in your breast; even after all this time it felt so shameless from my side to take the initiative over that kind of approaches and I imagined you smiling.

- What a shameless girl, my cutie can be. You said softly while enclosing me with your arms and I felt so beloved... I felt so safe, I felt so calm, I felt at home. Since the very first time you said your arms suppose to be my home, I could never success to feel any other place like home again except by your arms. I needed nothing else. You were mine and I was yours, forever; that was a promise I wasn't going to break, no matter what.